Here’s the question: What work do you share/sell and what work do you throw away and make sure no one ever sees it? Up to today, I’ve shared virtually all of it and been willing to sell any of it (because who wouldn’t? Right? right…?)
I sold a piece recently I wasn’t particularly proud of. It was an experimental piece, very different from a lot of the stuff I’d done previously. I learned a ton working on it, but I didn’t love it. It didn’t grab me, or tell any stories I wanted told. It was technically disappointing to me and inspirationally void.
People loved it, so I sold it. And I feel small.
As a ‘learning artist’ (meaning I don’t have any formal education in technique or materials) I am often creating on the fly, no clue what I’m doing or where I’m going. It’s fun and rewarding, but doesn’t always result in artwork that is ‘me’.
Rachel, my greatest online support and fount of hard boiled honesty, said this regarding my issue: ‘It nags at your sense of self. It is not how you want to be seen. When you put something out there that is not fully approved by your ego, you are sabotaging your integrity — literally creating a low self-esteem mini-attack.” Rachel is not to be trifled with when it comes to these things. More than anyone I know, she can put her finger smack in the middle of an issue I wasn’t sure I had and she pushes. It’s so good.
It’s time. Time for me to take an honest look at my listed work and prep the trash can. In the beginning I was so tickled that people would buy ANYTHING I drew that I published and sold EVERYTHING. It’s time for a change.